Why I No Longer Paint

Saturday, September 17, 2011 Stef dela Cruz 2 Comments

I used to like painting. But growing up got the better of me and I forgot about a few things that I used to cherish as a kid.

watercolor painting

Perhaps it was my love of self-expression that made me try drawing when I was a kid. I loved how one piece of paper could draw out emotion, provoke thought, and get people to share their opinions. It was like a story told from your point of view, but without the words. It was like opening a door of possibilities.

pencil sketch

I never used pencil for my drawings when I was younger - I never really knew why. I started using pencil when I reached highschool.  But when I was in first grade, I would use crayons alone. Maybe I loved the colors so much that using pencil would make me feel like I was raping the hues. Maybe I found the colors so scandalous and I loved it that way.

pastel drawing

I was never a great painter. Whatever awards I won were probably just a stroke of luck. I never had the chance to hone what I had. And maybe that was why it was taken away from me.

Or maybe I’m too lazy to find out if it’s still there.

watercolor painting

Regardless, I look back at memories of how I used to love drawing. Hopefully, they will remind me that every talent is a gift, but if it’s not given the justice it deserves, it’s bound to fade away.

watercolor painting

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Stef dela Cruz is a doctor and writer. She received the 2013 Award for Health Media from the Department of Health. She maintains a health column in Health.Care Magazine and contributes to The Manila Bulletin. Add her to your circles.


  1. Why stopped? They look so pretty. I love the first the the third illustrations. Cheers!

  2. It faded away, maybe I became too busy to remember that it was one thing I loved to do. :/