Because I’m Emotional Tonight

Saturday, May 14, 2011 Stef dela Cruz 0 Comments

I want a cigarette.


It has been ten years since I last craved for a cigarette. Maybe today reminds me of days in the past, making me crave for something which I actually hate now. Cigarettes. The idea of smelling one – ugh.


Which is why I don’t understand why I want to light one again after all these years.


A tarot card reader told me last night that there will be major changes in my life that might make me lose my mind. I took that with a grain of salt, but I personally thought it was funny. I am not the kind of person who would go insane.


(That’s because I’m already insane, in a sane way.)


But yes, I can feel it. That thing Atlas feels when he carries the world on his shoulders. That thing that makes you say, I’ve had it, may I please shrug now? To hell with the world if it rolls down my shoulders and falls apart.



I am at a crossroads. I am not ready. I think I want out.

Stef dela CruzAbout the blogger
Stef dela Cruz is a doctor and writer. She received the 2013 Award for Health Media from the Department of Health. She maintains a health column in Health.Care Magazine and contributes to The Manila Bulletin. Add her to your circles.