Flight – Flood? – of Ideas

Tuesday, July 13, 2010 Stef dela Cruz 0 Comments

Another diarrhea of words. Followed by a blank mind.

Staring at my notes, a question pops to mind: how much adrenaline can a person synthesize in one day? Sadly, I have forgotten. All the things I used to know are leaking out my ears. Maybe that’s because I’ve allowed my mind to go dull. In fact, I haven’t picked up my reviewer to study as regularly as I would have wanted. I have been too busy wallowing in something unexpectedly saccharine.

So, there I was, staring at my reviewer. Nothing seemed to sink into my befuddled brain. Concentrate, dammit.

It was hard to focus when all I was counting on was adrenaline. Maybe I should have gotten myself another cup of coffee, but that would have made me sleepy. Don’t ask.

How unproductive. I closed my notes. And then –

I had a migraine-inducing flood of thoughts. Somewhere in my sea of confusion, I saw things – oh things! – that shall never be erased. Questions, stares, quips. Too many words in just a split second. For a short moment, I forgot I was in a public place. I gasped out loud.

Holy jeepers creepers! What was that? No, I wasn’t losing my mind. I was perfectly sane. Too perfectly sane, in fact, that I knew reality was starting to slap me in the face and beat some sense into me.

Okay, I was awake. I was ready to listen intently.

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Stef dela Cruz is a doctor and writer. She received the 2013 Award for Health Media from the Department of Health. She maintains a health column in Health.Care Magazine and contributes to The Manila Bulletin. Add her to your circles.